2001.06/27 Ready For The Power Of Love
EXCERPTED FROM E-MAIL TO VLAD GLUZMAN
} So synchronous. Y'know, requiring both people to be available to talk at
} the same time. Tsk Tsk Tsk.
}
} E-mail's asynchronous -- much better. F'r instance -- should someone
} happen to be awake at 4 in the friggin' morning and having a revelation,
} he couldn't just call his buddy up and tell him; that would be rude and
} would potentially disrupt his buddy's life. He can, however, compose an
} e-mail and be assured of his comminique's eventual attention. Which is
} what we're striving for, here!
What makes you think I wasn't up at 4AM? ;-)
} Now if only we could get synchronizable e-mail... oh, wait that's what I'm
} going to have to be coding once I send this mail. Right-o!
}
} So, the revelation:
}
} Through a sequence of events that is too complex to get into, around 1:45
} this morning (2.25 hours ago) I was buying buying flowers and wine in a
} 24-hour supermarket. From there, I proceeded directly to the residence of
} one, Kiki. Of course, she didn't know I was coming, and was quite happily
} asleep.
}
} After an exchange of pleasantries involving the words, "F***ING NUTS!!!
} IT'S 2 IN THE MORNING!!!!" said individual proceeded to come downstairs
} and accept the flowers with a very sweet smile. After a further verbal
} exchange, I was forced to depart, still in posession of the bottle of wine
} I had brought, but quite happy to have been able to bring her flowers.
}
} (I believe the word you're looking for is "Whipped", though, luckily for
} me, she doesn't choose to use the power she has.)
I wasn't looking for that word. It was already right here in my mouth ready
to use. 8^)
} Experiences like this, when they don't bring on great sex (and a darned
} shame too), have a tendency to bring on revelations. And mine was about
} (I'm still working on a dramatic wording for this) Positive Energy. You
} see, I realized that I'd just created some positive energy by bringing
} Kiki flowers. And, if I hadn't been so whipped that I was ready to walk
} off a cliff at her word, I could have actually created more (like, by
} amusing her a bit, getting her to accept the wine, and, at a real stretch,
} by fashioning the situation so that great sex ensued).
}
} And so my revelation was that I really enjoy, love, absolutely adore,
} ecstatically desire to create positive energy in people's lives. Like, it
} makes me melt to see someone genuinely smile. Well, to varying degrees of
} ocurse (I actually melt in the case of Kiki, and, of course, in your case,
} Kim; :P In the case of the guy at the tow truck who opened my door once
} I'd realized that I locked my keys in my car when getting out to give Kiki
} her flowers, it's just a warm fuzzy feeling inside).
}
} But the point is, it's always there -- no matter what my mood, state of
} mind, whatever, whenever I see someone genuinely smile, especially if I
} helped them to do it, I always feel that warm fuzzy feeling. So that's my
} revelation -- that I want to make people smile, laugh, increase their
} energy. (need better wording, dammit!!!)
BTW, I use the word "Enrichment" as my root rubric. One of my major goals in
life is:
"I want to enrich people's lives"
which has such multifarious applications as:
"I wish to help people help themselves"
"I wish to lighten people's lives with humor"
"I wish to foster happiness in others"
"I wish to aid others in finding fulfillment"
and is related to one of my Covenants:
"I vow to reflect on the good that I see and reflect back the good I receive
from others."
} And in more than just the trivial ways like giving a five dollar tip or
} brnging flowers in the middle of the night -- really increase their
} energy. And I think I already do it. I just want to get better at it, and
} I want to take every opportunity I have to do it. Like, that warm, fuzzy
} feeling would almost never go away!!!!
There are many ways that people express affection to one another:
1) Verbally (e.g. appreciation, recognition, avowal, etc.)
2) Physically (e.g. touching, cameraderie, intimacy, etc.)
3) Gifts (e.g. presents, surprises, letters, etc.)
4) Service (e.g. chores, arrangements, ministry, etc.)
etc.
From what you are describing, it looks like you definitely enjoy Gifts and
Service. What about the first two? Does it make you happy to give someone a
sincere compliment? To be physically close to other people?
If so, you might want to consider "Love" or "Affection" as your root rubric,
in something like:
"I want to create joy through sincere affection"
Does this sound close to what you are feeling?
} See, I've had that warm fuzzy feeling in my gut for the last couple of
} weeks just in ANTICIPATION of the moment tonight when I'd give Kiki the
} flowers (I didn't know it was that moment I was anticipating, but it was).
} It gives me that warm fuzzy feeling just thinking about doing something
} nice for someone. So, I'm convinced that if I always thought about how I
} could make someone's life happier, better, more smiley, I'd make myself
} happier too.
}
} Anyhow, that's my revelation.
}
} Of course, there's a lot of logistics that are involved. I've already
} thought of drafting lists of five nice things I could do for each person I
} know, of exploring the taxidermy of nice thiings to do for people, from
} the trivial (a smile, nice tip, flowers, pay for the toll of the five
} people behind you), to the more serious (a well-planned surprise party).
} I've also thought of making lists of things I could do that increase my
} output of kind acts (positive attitude) and things which decrease it
} (timidity). I think I will make this a major project, because it deserves
} to be.
It does indeed sound like a major project, one with serious consequences that
you might not have thought about. If you become adept at being affectionate,
so much so that it became part of your nature, then you would probably become
the center of a confluence of goodwill and happiness. You would be
perpertually surrounded by people who not only genuinely appreciate the
things you do for them but also return goodness to you in various ways. You
would be constantly suffused with the "warm fuzzy feeling", sometimes to the
point of tearful joy.
Are you spiritually prepared for that?
What you are proposing is really and truly the "seeking the good" that
we've discussed previously. It is tapping into very powerful juju: our
Positive Connection with Others Sincerely Expressed as Genuine Love
(PCOSEGL). It is a transformational power of the first order. A 9th Level
Spell, baby.
But in order to work, it requires that you let go of a life predicated on the
Generation of Predictability by the Avoidance of Negativity (GPAN). Sure,
you can go through the motions, be nice, give gifts, become generous,
whatever. It will almost certainly improve your mood, but it will be in
constant dissonance with GPANic tendencies and attitudes. And it will likely
lead to a bipolar existence of joy and dejection, and especially feelings of
falseness and insincerity.
However, if you can release GPAN, just let it fall right out of you without a
fuss, then PCOSEGL has the capability to almost but not quite entirely change
your life. To rearchitect your emotions. To reorder your soul. It is a
lightning rod that will draw random unforeseen strikes of goodness to you
that blast away large chunks of what you previously called your "self",
remagnetizing you along lines of positive goodness.
Are you ready for that? Really, truly, soul-deep, prepared to let go of your
identity and let yourself be changed?
} Oh, BTW, I'm going to be in Pasadena right around breakfast time Sunday.
} Are you doing anything for breakfast?
if (Kim not on XTC) then {
While (Not 06/01/2001)
;
Kim & Vlad Have Breakfast;
}
else {
No breakfast;
}
Of course, the coder in me realizes this could be more compactly stated as:
While (Not 06/01/2001)
;
bKVHB = (!bKOnXTC);
but it's always good policy to write out the explicit blocks, in case you
want to modify the code some more later. ;-)
Give me a buzz on Saturday and we'll chat about breakfast.
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KIM E. LUMBARD Web Page = http://www.ugcs.caltech.edu/~kel/
477 S Euclid Ave #4 Perm E-Mail = [Deleted due to spambots]
Pasadena, CA 91101-3903 Cell Phone = +1 (408) SPARTAN [772-7826]
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