Who am I? What is my “place” in the universe? These are the questions that make me sit and think for a while. I have thought about who, or what I really am several times before, yet I have never come up with any answer that seem to be right. It is something that I am really curious to know, but, at the same time, very difficult and confusing for me to even think about.

I believe that I am here to have a great and enjoyable time though I have to have hard times as well. I think there is “nothing” in the universe; in other words, each of all the existing things has its opposite. It is probably true to all the good things and bad things that happen in my life, too. I think I am one of all the living things that some higher being, “the Creator”, has created. He has created me so I can enjoy even though I have to suffer the same amount. He has also made all creatures basiclly equal. As a result, I am not outstandingly special compared to others.

There are still differences, of course. Compared to other animals on this planet, human beings have exceptionally high intelligence, and I am one of them. I believe that human beings, including me, were granted this power because the Creator wanted us to be responsible for keeping the environment in a good shape so that all animals can live happily. I think this is one of my minor place, as a human being. I also believe that the Creator has given me a special feature, which is going to be my major place in the universe. I think my “place” is a position in which only I can be by having my own characteristics; however, I have not found out what exactly my place is, yet. I feel that I am beginning to see it as I grow up.

I have been using a term “the Creator” as a higher being. What is a higher being? My concept of it is someone who separated the positive and the negative from none in order to create and start the universe. Yet, I am not sure about this at all. If the Creator made the universe, then who created the Creator? I have absolutely no idea why, how, when, who or what started the whole universe, even though I have made many thoughts about it.

My conclusion to why I have no idea about the question right above is simply because the knowledge or information about that idea does not exist in my brain or others’. It is just like the fact that we cannot quite imagine the 5-dimensional world. However, I am positive that there is a higher being than us because there has to be a starter of this universe. I can tell that the Creator did not input his existance to our brain, which is also something I cannot understand why, from the fact that people believe in many gods. I am not sure if He still exists or not.

If He does, what should my relationship with Him be? I do not and will not use my limited important time just to worship the Creator in case my thanks can not be reached to Him or no response comes back. Many people think God can help them if they ask Him, but Ido not think there is any reason that He can helpme directly so that some bad thing disappear. I think He can get me to solve a problem by myself, and it is good to think this way because I will not depend on Him, but i will have confidence. Anyway, I do not think I can communicate with the higher being since I presume that he exists in some other dimensional world.

I am expecting to find out the answers to the wonders that I have been writing about when I die, because my mind will leave this world. I can’t wait till I die. Yet, I am going to enjoy my life in this world as much as I can before I do so.